On Day 5 of 30 Days of Tessism I am counting my blessings.
Gratitude: Today, I am grateful that I have finally learned to accept the gifts people give me. For the longest time I was convinced that being a strong woman meant doing it all alone. I could always give because that was the nature of my heart but I could never sit back and receive. Surely, that would undermine that strength that I was developing. Right?
Not quite. Strength is an elusive thing with as many different definitions as there are people in this world. Some of the things we call strength are used to mask the fear of the appearance of weakness. Accepting help or anything from others appears needy to the untrained eye. In reality, it is a gift to allow others to give to you.
I find great pleasure in giving to others and making a difference in someone’s life. All those times that I strove to “do it myself” lest I be a burden on others actually deprived someone of that exact same pleasure.
Allowing people to contribute to me allows others to see the difference they can make in my world. Doing so, I give myself another gift as well: acknowledgement of my self-worth. Receiving without worry, limitation or concern is my declaration that I worthy. I deserve all the generosity I encounter especially when my heart moves me to be generous in that same way with others. I am grateful I can revel in the gifts that others give me and compound them with the gifts I give myself.