Gratitude Day 14

I bring great news and the source of much gratitude on Day 14 of 30 Days of Tessism, new life.

Gratitude:  Today, I am beyond grateful for yesterday’s safe delivery of my newest godson.  And like that, a new open, clear mind has entered the world and is ready to absorb everything that comes his way.  It’s quite interesting that on the 14th day of last November’s 30-day challenge, I took on adopting a beginner’s mind.

With the birth of every child, we have the opportunity to observe the beginner’s mind in action and how it interacts with everyone and everything around it.  We have a lot to learn from the newly born.  I am grateful that he is born.  I am grateful for the honor being his godmother.  I am grateful for all that he will show and teach me.

Remembering

We kissed here once.  Those were nice.  Very.

I like your kisses however I get them.  Distracting.  I forget the heart of the matter and cling to them like they’re all that is living.

Your kisses are hard and punishing.  I want to be punished this way.  Not always.  Just that last time.

You weren’t as angry this last time.  No less intoxicating.  Different.

Anger hinted at a possible similar abyss.  Shared desolation.  Maybe you felt what I felt when I was away from you but I’m never sure.

Never know.  You may have cured me of wanting to know.  Curiosity didn’t simply kill the damn cat.  Drove it crazy then it killed itself.

Mmmmm.  So addicted to those kisses–want you connected in that very way–I would sell out almost everything.  Almost.

Especially me.  Renounced myself, my sanity, grace and joy to have them when you seemed to look at such magical things as our kisses with indifference.

I remember them.  They sometimes rock me to sleep, those kisses.

And, yeah that time when you–when we…I’m so glad I had that.  Rooting in the desert of something denied, I have that jewel filed away.

Feeling you feel me feeling you.  Blessing.

And I know it was right and good because I still feel good.  No regrets.

Wounds heal.  Sun kisses.  Always.  Grateful.