Wow, one more week and November and my month of challenges will be over. That went by faster than I imagined. I wonder if I’ve done all my challenges justice. We’ll see on the 30th!
Today’s challenge addresses a source of absolute torture for me. I’m someone who often feels compelled to “know” everything, anything. In instances where I just can’t “know”, I make it up–based on some great logic–but made up nonetheless. The third of the Four Agreements is right on time.
Today’s challenge: Take on the third of the Four Agreements. Don’t make assumptions. Find the courage to ask questions and to express what you really want. Communicate with others as clearly as you can to avoid misunderstandings, sadness and drama. With just this one agreement, you can completely transform your life.
Ever notice how some people always assume you think the worst of them? If given two possible explanations as to why you did something, they would surely choose the least favorable one?
Consider that you can be just like that person. In fact, you might be that person doing that to everyone and everything in your life. It’s pretty eerie to me how many times I assume the worst of things, people and life.
This challenge pulls for me to do more than rest on my assumptions. Instead I am charged to get explicit information about what’s really what by asking questions.
Asking questions is the very last thing I want to do, especially with people or situations where I feel prone to harm. Yet it’s those answers that will most likely make me feel safe. It’s funny how often I/we choose to not ask questions in order to be polite but all we do is replace those missed explanations with the most impolite, unkind theories.
So, I will work on the mastery of asking questions that make my stomach flip–questions tied to truths I’d rather avoid than address. I’m showing assumptions the door and I’m welcoming transparency and peace.
Today’s victory: There have been so many that I haven’t shared this month. Like the times I make sure that I take care of myself thoroughly and primarily each day. Or the experiment that I have become in communication and relationships and all the rewards I reap from sticking to my commitments.
The highlight of today’s victories was overcoming taking things personal–the second agreement in action. I have a very good friend who’s taking her sweet time to check out this blog even as I update her about it. I suggested she get to it sooner than later since I add a new one each day and there’ll be thirty hearty entries before she knows it.
I tried to explain why it was important for her to read it as it was happening rather than months from now because I wanted her support and wanted to share it with her. For her, it was fine that she’d get to it when she got to it.
I had to step back from the place of “Ugh, what kind of friend are you” again and again in that conversation. I let her be and finally had to accept that, after explaining and requesting that she read it before the end of the month, that her answer was noncommittal if not bordering on a “no” and that it had nothing to do with me! Ugh! Haha! Everything is not about me–at least not to peeople who aren’t me and it’s ok! My friendship goes on and maybe one day she’ll read this.
Gratitude: I am grateful for the boundless energy I dip into every day to do what I do. It never fails me.
On the horizon: Being ok with where and how I am